new one myxsleeplessxromance

FUCK IT!! im updating this one now! im tired of fucked up stupid ungreatful bitches saying shit to me! so yea!!! :)

hey i like my new layout it rocks me socks do you like it??? let me know what you think!! alrighty well check out this on to i did this one just for the hell of it  http://www.xanga.com/home.aspx?user=sweet_rotting_kisses !! im probly only going to update that one now ..............

holy fuck i e mailed josephs mom but my dunb ass forgot to take my signature off ..... SHIT!!! know what it said...... i wuv joseph with every bit of my witty bitty heart!! talk about being embarrased ... and she hasnt written me back yet ..... uh oh ashley made a booboo....... i think that im done with my site now ... hope you all like it!well hmmm i dont know what to write ... thats surprising .. joseph called me this morning andi  forgot i left my phone on silent from last night when he called me when my dad was asleep!!! so i didnt hear it :( *boohoo* but i knew he called because it said two missed calls... sometimes i think that his feelings are fading for me and then he tells me that he thinks that about me and that he is afraid that he will lose me to some other guy ... i wish that their was some sort of a way that i could reassure him ... but theirs not .. well now i guess that i can stay on the phone at night for as long as i want because my sister gave me free minutes but now ..... now i owe her 20 dollers wonder how imma get that .... eh ... who cares i gots to go laters kidz!!i think that im done with my site now ... hope you all like it!

god why cant i just be happy! you know that befor i met joseph i woke up everyday wanting to fucking die .... its not like i want to die now but people are just retarded about the hole thing they need to realize that i am 17 and i gotta make my own decisions ... noone can make those decisions for me! besides that people are trying to protect me but in reality they say that im stupid (jeff) or that I am in need of attention(sophie) or that i am loosing touch with them because of that one person that makes me feel like im breathing ...so i get pissed because he isnt doing anything worng....when he is not the problem or to blame in any situation the only thing that he is guilty of is loving me with all his heart! if anyone knew ANYTHING about that which they dont then maybe they would get that! negative people think negative things .............i cant help but wright exsactly how i feel in my journal entrys .. but how am i not trying to keep in touch with someone when i ve called written and immed her and i am the problem ... i dont understand! and you know what she will pprobly read this and hate me what can i say ... now i am a lil angry about it! i wasnt but things change when they tell you even if your trying it your fault and the one time i need her to understand me she is not their ................  i am one to fess up when things are my fault .... but things are not ALWAYS my fault!im sick of trying to be the understanding one while noone even tries to understand me!HOLLIE THIS IS NOT ABOUT YOU I LOVE YOOH!!!!